change in plans

one minute i was headed for north dakota and the next minute i was driving east on I-94. i was home to see mom and planned to take the train to minot in the morning. i checked my voice mail and found a voice mail from kath. a call late in the night,just after midnight. unable to reach her, i went to bed, but my sleep was fitful. there was something wrong, but what?

an early morning call explained it all. "tom fell and hit his head..."
no need for details. he was gone. his balance finally failed him. he was on coumadin. a huge "brain bleed". "he died this morning, just after five..."

so i forgot about minot and headed home to "be there", for my dear friend, as she returned home. a new chapter faces us. life, without the "love of her life". it is uncharted territory. i don't need to lead her.
i just need to be nearby in case she needs me. that's all i can do in this world without tom.

admission to my "self"

monday night iwas surfing the web. for some unknown reason,(better known as the Holy Spirit) i looked up oa. i located a meeting and tday i went to a meeting. i am powerless over food. the admission " ican do anything for someone else. i just can't do it for my "self". tears of truth and the need to bare my powerlessness...to strangers. annonymity...an opportunity.

time with friends

one of my resons for retiring was to have time with my "older" relatives and friends. after Easter i will take the train to north dakota. my aunt agnes will be 94 this month and my aunt mary will be 92 this summer. my local friends range in ages from mid-twenties to mid-nineties. quite a range! now is the time to reach out and garner all the wisdom those aunts can afford me.

friendships require time and lots of care. in my life i have been enriched a hundredfold by my relationships. men and women who take from 'where i am and lead me to 'new insights and understanding'. i count the time i spend with them as a blessing.